yeah -- i kind of. that's why i haven't mentioned it in any lj entries at all since starting uni. but i didn't want it to have to be a confession or anything. it's -- there are many reasons, & i firmly maintain that it's not due to weakness or peer pressure, it was simply a decision that i made. & i am -- i am still a little conflicted about it, because i did have a lot of pride in being edge. i don't even know. some days i think no, i'm going to give it all up again. it's just -- i don't know. do you care about my reasons?