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[rosiedoes]

This came up from a conversation that likethepaint and I are having with eyerenderingfan, and I would be really interested in knowing the following:

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[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I can understand that, and I meant to reply to your comment before, but it got lost in my inbox - the thing that allowed me to stop, the only thing, was removing the catalyst.

I left home, I changed my life for myself, I got out of the situations where I wanted to or felt I needed to. And I've been away from home for seven years and haven't done it for maybe six... six and a half?

I still had to give someone a bronze age dagger I'd made, for safe keeping, a few years back, but now I'm fine. I have lost the triggers and found the strength to push through it. And I know you can do that, too.

Focus on an incentive. Give yourself a reason to want to do it, and believe that you can. You've given up far worse and you've come this far. Make that push.

[anjak-j.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I took a long time replying to everyone to be fair, because even going near that post was triggering - it's not taking a whole lot at the moment.

I've come to the grand conclusion, after removing everything that I thought was the problem - moving away from my parents, getting out of the refuge - that I have a serious need for therapy for all the shit my parents and other people have done to me over the years.

I really did think I was in the clear from this shit. I hadn't thought about it in so long - the last time before I restarted was actually connected with a side reason I came to the decision to stop drinking. (I thought it was a year, it was actually in February.) At the moment, it's just a case of taking each day as it comes and not kicking myself too hard in the ass when I give in.