This sucks.

So, I wanted to come home tonight and make a big thank you post for all the birthday wishes, and say what a great time I had, yesterday...

...but this evening has been one massive pile of fuckup and I just feel utterly miserable.

I had a crap time at Circle (not anything anyone did, just internal stuff); I think I really upset someone, but I don't know for sure and I just feel really paranoid and guilty; I feel like someone else is messing with me and if they are, I'll be really hurt; and then there's That Atlantis Rumour and it's making me so fucking miserable.

( Spoiler )

If you don't mind spoilers, and haven't seen it already - please go here and do what you can. For me.

I need to go and cry now.