This Is Not A Democracy

Okay, so I'm frantically looking for the old SGA fanvids we used to love. I've found the amazing skroberts' Mad World in my Gmail (♥) but I would still really love to find copies of these ones:

- Johnny Feelgood
- Wicked Game (the original McShep one)
- Running Up That Hill (the Placebo cover of the Kate Bush song)
- Falling For the First Time
- Here's to the Little Guys (a vid about all the secondaries in the series)
- Collide (by tiranog - I don't remember this one, but Julie does)

We've also just found some fucking ridiculous conversations we once had in which we named Joseph May "Squishpuppet" and "He Of The Face So Gay There Are Eight Colours In His Pride Rainbow."

Boyan, on the other hand, was "An Argyle Cardigan. For Rock Climbing In."

There may also have been a conversation about how the Serbian Orthodox Church was essentially a Bloody Mary cocktail.

So, shiny_starlight and I have decided to get back to work on a fic we were co-writing FIVE YEARS AGO, in the Stargate fandom. That fic was a sequel to a fic I'd written previously, about characters I'd brought out of the realm of the secondary/tertiary/redshirt (oh yes) and created a whole backstory for.

The sequel featured a crossover with a parallelish universe, in which alternate versions of themselves were forced to meet and work together.

The problem now? I'm having to devise a whole backstory for the AU!versions and in that I find myself wanting to WRITE THEIR WHOLE BACKSTORY. It has [EDIT: I have no idea how this sentence ended or where it went.]

Oh man.

Someone has been commenting on my old Stackhouse/Markham fics. I never finished Night Lights and I totally wish I had.

I miss that fandom. It was so easy on the wank.

I'm really tempted, but I have so much going on in this fandom.

VANCOUVER HAS BEEN BOOKED!!

*runs around screaming... and then remembers Atlantis and crawls into a corner*

And also:



(Given the chance...)

And, considering #1:

Can I just say, and I don't really meta the Atlantis stuff here, but it needs to be said - I genuinely love Ronon Dex.

I love him the way I love my JJ: a big squishy softy who I can acknowledge is hot, but really just adore in a platonic fashion.

I've loved seeing him grow since season two (and I liked him straight away, even though I regarded him as a replacement for Ford, who genuinely was one of my favourite characters); I've loved seeing him go from wildman to Big Squishy George Jack of the Jungle and see him start to really feel at home in Atlantis.

I love how he loves his team, how he'd do anything for them and how happy they make him. I love how he treats Radek like a person, not a geek, and how he may be the most sagittarian Sagittarius to ever have cantered down the pike, but really, he's a little Leocub inside. I love how he cuts the crap and doesn't dumb-down so much as demand a straight answer.

I love the way he smiles like a dork at people he cares about and how soft he is with them - but how he's actually really kickass and a pissy bitch when he wants to be.

I LOVE HIM.

This journal needs a Ronon icon.

So, I wanted to come home tonight and make a big thank you post for all the birthday wishes, and say what a great time I had, yesterday...

...but this evening has been one massive pile of fuckup and I just feel utterly miserable.

I had a crap time at Circle (not anything anyone did, just internal stuff); I think I really upset someone, but I don't know for sure and I just feel really paranoid and guilty; I feel like someone else is messing with me and if they are, I'll be really hurt; and then there's That Atlantis Rumour and it's making me so fucking miserable.

( Spoiler )

If you don't mind spoilers, and haven't seen it already - please go here and do what you can. For me.

I need to go and cry now.

I swear to God - the next person who spoils Atlantis for me is going to be defriended.

I don't give a fuck how much you want to squee, or if you 'try not to give too much away', saying what the episode contains or who plays what role is A FUCKING SPOILER. There is absolutely no excuse for it.

Don't even think I'm kidding. An inability to use an LJ-cut shows nothing but selfish disrespect for the people on your flist, especially if you know (because they've told you before) that they hate spoilers.

Seriously. Have some fucking consideration.

*sighs* I wasn't going to, but it's Hewlett...

Pegs 2, watch out for the combats.