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[rosiedoes]

Okay, I've been wanting to say this for a while, and now is the perfect time to say it.

I'm going to say this once and say it very, very clearly:

I am a fiercely, fiercely loyal person. If you are my friend, I'd give you my last penny and fight to the death for you - until you disappoint me. If you fuck with my friends, you fuck with me. If you show yourself to be something less than I believed you to be - if you are two faced, spineless or prejudiced, or if you side with bullies - I will FUCK. YOU. UP.

I will stand by my friends through anything while they are deserving of it, but I've had a lot of practise at cutting people out of my life and I will do it with no remorse whatsoever if you give me a reason.

I might like you, I may even love some of you (and I do), but I don't need people who choose not to live up to the respect I give them.

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[shiny-starlight.livejournal.com]

The way you put it, loyalty to your friends etc, it makes perfect sense. Unfortunately, it's not always the case. I know this from experience. I've called some fucked up people friends, and been treated pretty shittily in the past. I like that I always know where I stand with you. Same goes for me, you know. I fight for my friends. Hope you know that.

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

You're one of the most awesome people in the world, dude. I trust you not to screw me over, and I sincerely doubt you'll ever disappoint me because you're just not that sort of person.

Hence my wanting to move in with you! XD

[shiny-starlight.livejournal.com]

*blushes and glomps* Same back to you. And I can't wait to move. Eve though, every few days, the scope of moving catches up with me and I get a 'What the hell am I doing?' moment. lol.

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

HAHAHA. At least it's only £30 away, not £350.

[shiny-starlight.livejournal.com]

Very true. It wont be that much of a difference then. Though expect a few tears a few weeks in lol

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

I'll pack you off home for a weekend.

[shiny-starlight.livejournal.com]

hehehe. I'll porbably get frequent flyers miles, the first six or seven months. *facepalm* I'm such a homebird

[anjak-j.livejournal.com]

Fucking-A. You are seriously awesome and straight-forward. It's what I value most about you. Say what you mean and mean what you say. ♥

This is what I should have said months ago when people were giving me shit for being me.

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I am the only way I know how to be. I haven't chosen to be an exceptionally straight-forward person, that's all I can be.

But I'm pretty glad about that. It means I always have a 100% clear conscience. I don't hide my opinions unless it's to save someone's feelings because I care.

I just wish all the world had the same attitude as me, for their own sake and for everyone else's.

[anjak-j.livejournal.com]

*hugs* It's definitely important to be true to yourself, and while I do tend to say what I think, I don't always speak on what is on my mind until it gets to a stage like last time.

Life is a learning process, and y'know, I've learned a lot from being friends with you about not putting up and shutting up all the fucking time like I used to.

The world would be such a better place if it was populated with people who had the same attitude...for realz.

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

You kind of made me tear up, there, dude. Seriously. *huggles*

Considering how much shit you've been through, if be being a mouthy cow has helped you be stronger and stand up for yourself like that, I genuine feel humbled - and glad for every shitty thing that forced me to be this way.

[anjak-j.livejournal.com]

Awwwwww shit... *snuggles*

Y'know, I think that is why when it comes down to the real stuff, I find it easier to talk to you than a lot of other people. We've both been through a lot of shit - and no matter how many times people ask me if I would change the things that have happened - as tempting as it is, I wouldn't. For exactly the reason you have just said. It has made me who I am, and after years of being made to feel small and unworthy, I finally have some peace and like who I am. I could have just rolled over and died - fuck that. And if what I've been through helps others, well it is worth it.

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

Exactly.

What makes you different makes you beautiful; what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

This song is one of the things that gets me through the day, sometimes. There are elements of self-doubt in it, but ultimately, it just makes me feel happier and uplifted.

I think you should download it.

[anjak-j.livejournal.com]

That is a fucking great song. I actually Googled the lyrics as well, and I see what you mean about the self-doubt in there. But yeah, it is uplifting too.

Thanks for that. ♥

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

No problem. That's Patrick in there doing the backing vocals as well.

They take some time to manage the Happy About Stupid Shit in their songs, but Motion City Soundtrack are pretty awesome.

Get the albums, if you can. I'd send you them but my connection is fucked.

[nikitaquincy.livejournal.com]

♥

This is what I love about you. You're not afraid to speak your mind, and to stand up for your friends. I am truly lucky to have you as a friend, and I can't thank you enough for everything you've done for me. *hugs*

If only everyone was as awesome as you.

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

I wish people were as honest as me, but I'm pretty sure it's possible to be even more awesome.

I still maintain that the things I do for the people I care about are just what any truly decent person would do for a friend.

People have forgotten what it means to be a friend to someone, these days, and that's a very sorry situation.

[blacknarcissus2.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

We may not always agree about things - and we don't - but I'm damn happy to consider you among my friends even if we haven't met. I can always handle honesty. It may sometimes take me an hour or so to deal with the degree of "blunt and forthright", but it's INFINITELY better than the backstabbing, laughing assassin alternative. And I've had MORE than my fill of those in the past three years.

*hugs more*

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

*huggles*

I can't think of a time that I've ever said or thought a negative thing about you, or intentionally implied anything of that nature.

You're one of the people I've had around for the longest on the internet - back since the HP days - and while I don't always comment that much, it's more because I can't think of anything I can say or do that is of impact when you've dealt with so fucking much.

I think you're pretty amazing, frankly, and I'm sorry if I've ever said anything in such a way that it would cause you offense. *cuddles*

[blacknarcissus2.livejournal.com]

You've NEVER offended me. Ever ever. :D And... GAH! *BLUSHES* Not sure about the amazing bit. I just trundle on through, ehehehe. What you went through from a madly early age would have sent MANY people under, never to surface again. You're the amazing one.

But no. You've never offended me. You just make me Think, and that's never a bad thing. I love your candour. It's a sad thing that I DO ever have to sit back and ponder it because it's becoming increasingly more rare.

It goes without saying but don't you EVER change. Not even in the slightest.

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

*huggles* I doubt I could, even if I wanted to. :)

But you've handled a lot in the last few years and you've made it. My last three years have been pretty damn easy in comparison.

[untelling.livejournal.com]

I know that we don't know each other that well, but I appreciate that level of loyalty and ferocity that you show your friends. I hope that you never have occasion to do so on my behalf, but if you ever do, I hope I'm deserving of it.

Most of all, I hope that things get easier and that people would just lay off of you and yours for a bit.

Now - for the happy making. Please to be seeing my pic. It's a Jen original taken at the Atlanta date for Young Wild Things. If it screws up your page, feel free to delete, but I wanted to share some happiness and love.



(http://i226.photobucket.com/albums/dd290/hickoryjen/FOB9.jpg)

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

Aww, haha - thank you, hon. *loves on both you and the Cupcake Kid*

You know what? The thing you've done to piss me off since I've known you is to not believe in yourself. I commented on that post. Shake off that bullshit. You're far too awesome for that.


(I feel like I should end this with, "C'N AH GIT A HAAALLELUJAH?")

[untelling.livejournal.com]

'A-MAN!' *in southern US accent*

Don't mind me. I'm mostly happy - but every now and again I feel like I try too hard and come off looking stupid and then fall victim to fits of passive-aggressiveness. BUT...It's all good, homie! *HUG*

Come to think of it - I need to delete that stupid post. I don't feel like that any longer. Thank you for replying to it. Thank you for caring about it.

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

I may not always comment (because I read first thing in the morning and then forget to comment when I have the time) but I'm usually aware of what's going on with my friends.

Hit me up if you ever need hugs. :)

[untelling.livejournal.com]

Will do.

And ditto.

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

Need a straw? XD

But thank you, hon. *hugs* I hope you know that you can always depend on my friendship.

There are probably three people I could also have linked to where I linked to Ashe, Julie and Evie, and those are Lin, Matte and you.

You guys are awesome and I hope you know that.

[shinko.livejournal.com]

Do you know how honored I am to be called your little sister? Since I was fourteen I've wanted to be half as cool as you. I love you Rosie, to bits and pieces. <3.

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

I love you too, sis.

The best family you can have is the one you choose, right? ♥

PS. Fuck off, you're cooler than me! I'm just a nerd.

[shinko.livejournal.com]

Hah, please. We might be in the same nerdy boat, but there is no way that I'm cooler than you. No way.

:D

[returntosender.livejournal.com]

I don't need people who choose not to live up to the respect I give them.

Amen. I think a lot of people out there don't think mutual respect is important, or at least they can't be bothered to fight for my respect. Their loss.

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

It's less about people respecting me, than it is about people being deserving of the respect I will give my friends.

I can handle people not respecting me (to an extent) it's people not respecting themselves, other people or doing things I consider them far, far too intelligent for.

Hence my stance on my friends dabbling in illegal substances, even before I was edge.

[americancashito.livejournal.com]

You're like me, only better and I love you for it.

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

♥

I don't think I'm better than many people - but a lot of people on LJ have given me reason to believe I'm wrong, in the last few weeks. Not because of what they said about me, but what they did to other people.

I won't tolerate that.