Fuck you.

Wednesday, 13 May 2009 05:50 pm
rosiedoes: (Mood: sXe)
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For the record, and I'm only saying this because of a statement SHE MADE to one of my friends in her journal, [livejournal.com profile] likethepaint claiming I'm responsible for her self-harming because I supposedly "snapped at her" is bullshit. She's trying to deny she said it now, but it's too fucking late. I won't forgive this.

She's stressed about exams, insists on believing that Swansea University will house its students in halls according to whether they are into partying or not and cannot stand being wrong. No matter how much she insists she hates conflict or confronting people, she does a pretty good job of bitching at me - usually when I get angry about the way people (including her own family) supposedly treat her. Yeah - getting angry at me for feeling protective of her after being told her highly dramatic sob stories. Really nice.

Frankly, I'm done with the drama that just has not stopped lately. I hadn't blocked her last night, but I'll be fucked if I'm letting someone blame me for their personal problems, which half the time are due to her own misunderstandings or blowing shit way out of proportion.

Julie and I have let her stay for days and days at a time, we've 'fed' her expensive meat-free substitutes from the organic shop down the road when she came to visit and cooked her separate meals (while I was on £60.50 a week benefits as my sole income, I should note) - only for her to never eat more than a few forkfuls, if that (and I'm not exaggerating), we've taken her shopping, helped her out when she was sick, and her repayment is to claim that I'm the reason she allegedly self-harmed? As someone who spent fucking YEARS doing that, I would never, ever publicly accuse someone of doing something so personal. It is your own choice to do that, I didn't give her the blade or tell her what to do. In fact, my "snapping" was saying I was going to bed, which I was fully planning to do.

Anyone who doesn't believe me is welcome to see the conversation, given as the only personal element of it is conjecture as to Swansea University's housing policies. At this point, and after that bullshit, I don't even care what she thinks anymore.

Fuck you, Matte. It doesn't matter how old you are by age, you have a lot of growing up to do before you become an adult.

Don't worry - you'll get your ticket money for the FOB show (which you insisted on paying for) back the moment I get my June pay.

on 2009-05-13 07:51 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] anjak-j.livejournal.com
That shit isn't on. I mean, if I SI, regardless of stressors that lead to it, the harming is all on me. You really cannot just go around blaming other people for that kind of thing, even if it is what you feel.

Totally out of line.

on 2009-05-13 08:12 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] rosiedoes.livejournal.com
I need to remember that not everyone on the internet is my age, I seriously fucking do.

on 2009-05-13 08:32 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] anjak-j.livejournal.com
You and me both. Though I guess I should say more mental and emotional age, since some of the people who are physically older than me are just as juvenile...

In other news, I've finally gotten around to sitting down and watching BoB...

on 2009-05-13 08:33 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] rosiedoes.livejournal.com
Oooh! How obsessed are you?

on 2009-05-13 08:37 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] anjak-j.livejournal.com
I'm currently watching 'Carentan'. The fact that I got this far...probably not as obsessed as you, but getting here...

on 2009-05-13 08:43 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] rosiedoes.livejournal.com
Take note of the secret affair Nix and Harry are having behind Dick's back. Haha.

And watch for back-of-shot adorable grabbiness between Skip and Penkala.

on 2009-05-13 08:48 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] anjak-j.livejournal.com
Heh heh. Will do. =D

on 2009-05-13 09:26 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] failboats.livejournal.com
If it helps; I still think you're awesome. Which probably doesn't but l it's all I have to say right now.

on 2009-05-13 09:26 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] rosiedoes.livejournal.com
*hugs* Thank you, hon. It does, actually. ♥

on 2009-05-14 02:53 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] ashe-frost.livejournal.com
Wow. That is not fucking okay. I've gotten into some pretty self-martyring, 'oh pity me' arguments with you--the ones where we messaged back and forth for hours and threatened to stop talking to one another (and that one time, actually did,) but Jesus Fucking Christ that's just completely unforgivable.

Does she know you at all?

Wow. This is really upsetting that she would say that to you. I want to cry or yell a little.

But mostly, I kind of want to send her a message like, "Look, princess, you don't really have to self-injure. Call me. I'll be happy to do it for you, then you really will have someone else to blame."

on 2009-05-14 06:26 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] rosiedoes.livejournal.com
*snugs* I love you, dude. And I'm fine, honestly. I am so, so over it and her right now.

on 2009-05-14 06:44 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] edgiko.livejournal.com
I LEAVE THE INTERNET FOR A DAY AND IT EXPLODES WITH DRAMA! >:( *hugs*

on 2009-05-14 06:46 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] rosiedoes.livejournal.com
Meh. I wouldn't call it drama - I'm just done with the bullshit and refuse to take something like this lying down... *hugs* I'm fine, honestly.

I'm going to go back to hanging out with grown ups.
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on 2009-05-14 05:46 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] rosiedoes.livejournal.com
*hugs* I'm fine, hon. I was wondering where you'd been but I assumed you were focusing on your dissertation or something. I know you're there if I need you. :)

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