Goddammit.

[rosiedoes]

The other day, I read an awesome story by coricomile, which was a very long and well-written Patroh piece.

It made me miss writing in bandom so badly, and reminded me of all those stories I was writing and never finished. It also made me miss Fall Out Boy, which is probably worse. I'm seeing The Damned Things on Saturday, and I have never been so proud of Joe and what he's accomplished, but god, I still hanker for the early noughties and chubbiness and awkward, bambi limbs crammed into tour vans...

I did think about going back to bandom fic after Joe made That Comment to me, but I don't know. It's hard, not having really written for a year. Eighteen months, in the case of TWNW. I would still love to finish that fic, but I doubt I ever will. There was so much to fix.

Damn.

I'm supposed to be working on the Shelock bigbang, but I just can't get into it, because I'm thinking about bandom.

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[verying.livejournal.com]

That comment??

I do have moments where I really miss bandom, and I was poking around in my wip folder the other day and found a long-ish part of BDSM 2, where Patrick is being willfully dense about his and Joe's relationship, and Joe is hurt. Made me sad.

I'd love to read it, if you wrote more Patroh! But I understand how these things go...you might just never be in the right headspace again.

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

He told me, in direct relation to fic, that I was "One of the good ones." Which presumably means he has read my stuff.

But yeah; I don't think I could be, unless it was spurred on by a massive reunion or something. I can't even look at Patrick anymore. He looks ill and it depresses me.

I was always sad that you never finished that fic; it would have been wonderful and I never got to read any of it.

[supercasio.livejournal.com]

I was thinking about this the other day, I've been full of nostalgia lately. I don't really miss bandom, it was too much internet drama for me. But I miss the bands and some of the friends I made along the way. I think you are the only person I've really kept in contact with outside of bandom and I only got to know you towards the very back end of all that, there are people that I had previously known for years that have now just completely dropped of my radar.

But mostly I miss FOB and boy oh boy do I miss a certain chubby tummy.

[rosiedoes.livejournal.com]

Yeah, there are hardly any people in bandom who I am still friends with, really - at least, not ones I'm friends with because of bandom - but I miss fic, and I miss thinking about 2002-3 when they were awkward little babies and just starting out and writing angsty, teenage crushes...

I despair the loss of the tummy. And the loss of the knowledge that they were all hanging out and clinging to their roots that little bit. Even Joe has left Chicago, now. It makes me so sad.