Gone.

I think we knew it was coming, but it doesn’t make it any less gutting…

The core brief came round this morning, and Teh Pretteh is listed on it as a leaver in September. I think that's when his sick leave started.

I'm dead upset. He was so sweet and lovely and hoping that I'd get to bump into him, or that I'd find out he was back, was pretty much my motivation for turning up at work every day. Now I'm never going to see him again.

:*(

I'm going to miss him, even though we never really had a chance to get to know each other, really. Someone said to me, "You wouldn't have had a reaction like that when you first saw him if it didn't mean something". Yes. It meant I was going to be disappointed again. AGAIN.

When I first saw him it was literally like, "WOAH." He was so pretty, so exactly my 'type'… everyone liked him... and then there was the whole elbow frottage thing and the dorky 'OMGNOWIFEELSTUPID' grins when we were at the retirement presentation… I feel cheated.

I don't have much of an appetite, now, but I bought some chocolate anyway.

Just feel like crying, really.