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Wednesday, 11 October 2006 11:19 amI have just receive a notification of a comment from one of the moderators of the Band of Brothers stamping community that started the whole RP fandango, months ago, inviting me to reapply.
Apparently, in six months a lot can change and the character we are most like (I was formerly voted as most like Harry Welsh, being short, sarcastic and prone to flirting with mortal danger) and we should all have another go.
However, the person who messaged me is the twin sister of the person who left anonymous messages on the journal I used at the time, and one of the co-mods is my crazy ex-girlfriend. Everyone who was in the RP came from that group and most submitted their membership requests on the grounds of who they had been stamped as.
The whole thing started when my ex and I began to talk to each other in character on that very community.
Considering the circumstances under which I left, you'd think they'd pay a little more attention as to who they're inviting back, wouldn't you (although the person who commented is the only one of the three mods who was never cruel to me and in fact very supportive when the ex was first being a cunt)?
What does strike me as odd, however, is that it's the third time in a few weeks that someone from that fandom has made contact with me. First one of the people who was the most vindictive left me comments apologising for her behaviour; the other day someone else from the fandom added this journal and I had to ask them to remove me from their flist and now this.
What the fuck?
After all they did, why can't they just leave me alone?
Apparently, in six months a lot can change and the character we are most like (I was formerly voted as most like Harry Welsh, being short, sarcastic and prone to flirting with mortal danger) and we should all have another go.
However, the person who messaged me is the twin sister of the person who left anonymous messages on the journal I used at the time, and one of the co-mods is my crazy ex-girlfriend. Everyone who was in the RP came from that group and most submitted their membership requests on the grounds of who they had been stamped as.
The whole thing started when my ex and I began to talk to each other in character on that very community.
Considering the circumstances under which I left, you'd think they'd pay a little more attention as to who they're inviting back, wouldn't you (although the person who commented is the only one of the three mods who was never cruel to me and in fact very supportive when the ex was first being a cunt)?
What does strike me as odd, however, is that it's the third time in a few weeks that someone from that fandom has made contact with me. First one of the people who was the most vindictive left me comments apologising for her behaviour; the other day someone else from the fandom added this journal and I had to ask them to remove me from their flist and now this.
What the fuck?
After all they did, why can't they just leave me alone?
All these things I hate...
Friday, 6 October 2006 11:57 pmOn Friday (a week today), Julie is coming to visit for the weekend. It'll be nice to see each other, but it does also serve a purpose.
Three months after what happened with the RP, and my then 'girlfriend' (hah.), and how it destroyed Band of Brothers for us, we plan to watch the series together. For the first time in a quarter of a year.
At the time, we were watching it every single day, to some extent. Re-watching eps for details, or just because we loved them. I think I've seen Bastogne and The Breaking Point about fifty times each. Certain scenes, hundreds of times. I adore that series. The men it depicts are genuinely my heroes. I wear the jumpwings of the 101st Airborne (the chute and wings motif) on my jacket. Through the RP, I fell completely for the characters of Skip, Penk, Malark and [Tiny Wee Hero] Harry Welsh. In all sincerity, I loved that series.
But the break up of the RP really hurt. Really, really, really. I still get painful clenches in my stomach when I think about the way people behaved, and how shocking it was to be turned on by people who had been my confidantes when the 'girlfriend' was tormenting me with her behaviour (blanking me one minute, planning a future together the next).
As much as the RP had taken a turn for content which was completely against my sensibilities, I can't help but miss it, sometimes. It was a lot of fun when it was at its best. And it comprised most of the most active members of the fandom. So, these days, the only people Julie and I have to share our love of the series with, is each other.
But for all this time, both of us have been too hurt and angry at what happened to be able to.
And just now, while surfing the net with the TV on, I heard a voice I recognised without needing to look up, saying words I knew like the back of my hand. Buck Compton. Julie's boy. Replacements. A trailer for the series, which is being shown one of the academic channels.
It made me cry. I'm so afraid of finding I can never watch the series again without torturing myself with what happened. Because although I usually brave face it, what they did to me - and Julie - and how they got away with it, isn't something I can forget, forgive, or apparently get over.
I was just starting to trust people again. How I wish I'd never met them.
It's never going to be the same again.
Three months after what happened with the RP, and my then 'girlfriend' (hah.), and how it destroyed Band of Brothers for us, we plan to watch the series together. For the first time in a quarter of a year.
At the time, we were watching it every single day, to some extent. Re-watching eps for details, or just because we loved them. I think I've seen Bastogne and The Breaking Point about fifty times each. Certain scenes, hundreds of times. I adore that series. The men it depicts are genuinely my heroes. I wear the jumpwings of the 101st Airborne (the chute and wings motif) on my jacket. Through the RP, I fell completely for the characters of Skip, Penk, Malark and [Tiny Wee Hero] Harry Welsh. In all sincerity, I loved that series.
But the break up of the RP really hurt. Really, really, really. I still get painful clenches in my stomach when I think about the way people behaved, and how shocking it was to be turned on by people who had been my confidantes when the 'girlfriend' was tormenting me with her behaviour (blanking me one minute, planning a future together the next).
As much as the RP had taken a turn for content which was completely against my sensibilities, I can't help but miss it, sometimes. It was a lot of fun when it was at its best. And it comprised most of the most active members of the fandom. So, these days, the only people Julie and I have to share our love of the series with, is each other.
But for all this time, both of us have been too hurt and angry at what happened to be able to.
And just now, while surfing the net with the TV on, I heard a voice I recognised without needing to look up, saying words I knew like the back of my hand. Buck Compton. Julie's boy. Replacements. A trailer for the series, which is being shown one of the academic channels.
It made me cry. I'm so afraid of finding I can never watch the series again without torturing myself with what happened. Because although I usually brave face it, what they did to me - and Julie - and how they got away with it, isn't something I can forget, forgive, or apparently get over.
I was just starting to trust people again. How I wish I'd never met them.
It's never going to be the same again.
The Last of the True Heroes.
Friday, 19 May 2006 07:08 pmI just read the death toll of Easy boys who have died since the series was filmed. I cried on the tube.
Dick is the only Toccoa officer left.
I know we've been quibbling about dates, recently, so here is the list, according to Dick himself:
( The List: Officers and Non-Comms - not happy reading. )
The thing that made me cry, is that I took comfort from the fact that so many of these men - the last of the world's true heroes, as far as I am concerned - were still with us. And yet, it now seems that some of the characters we loved best in the series waited for their story to be told before they left us.
I can add to this list that Lester Hashey died in December 2002, which really affected me when I found out.
It is easy to forget that the interviews for the series were taken largely three-quarters of a decade ago. It's a long time. One by one they're going back to their buddies, and I'm sure they're glad of that, but the world won't be quite as honourable a place without them raising the tone.
Dick is the only Toccoa officer left.
I know we've been quibbling about dates, recently, so here is the list, according to Dick himself:
( The List: Officers and Non-Comms - not happy reading. )
The thing that made me cry, is that I took comfort from the fact that so many of these men - the last of the world's true heroes, as far as I am concerned - were still with us. And yet, it now seems that some of the characters we loved best in the series waited for their story to be told before they left us.
I can add to this list that Lester Hashey died in December 2002, which really affected me when I found out.
It is easy to forget that the interviews for the series were taken largely three-quarters of a decade ago. It's a long time. One by one they're going back to their buddies, and I'm sure they're glad of that, but the world won't be quite as honourable a place without them raising the tone.